"Why in the world does she do this to herself?"

In one year, I will be off to my place of higher education. When I go, things need to change. If I get to be a junior in college and still am hopelessly single, I am going to do something rash. Like actually make a move.

And it's not like I've never been in love. I have. I am. It's just that the object of my affections has an object of his affections. Married affections.

At the risk of sounding like a typical teenager, I kind of hate my life. Even though I'm not, I feel like I'm totally alone.

God. If this was in ten years, it would be sensical. But it's not. So I'm just gonna shut up.

Superfabulous?

So, I'm having a bit of an issue. I always complain internally when I never get invited to go do things, and then when I do, my uber-cautious side hops in with concerns and whatnot. Like tonight. Some girls and I are gonna go to the lake (skinny-dipping was mentioned...) and I suddenly have all these reservations.

It's funny.....as I'm typing this, they're going away. Hmm. Probably because, as Nate recently pointed out, live life without inhibitions. Never turn opportunities down just because they're different.

Okay, apparently I just taught myself a lesson.

And no.....I am not skinny-dipping Sometimes a few inhibitions are a good thing.

...now this just has to pan out.

An Unspoken Rule That Is Now Spoken.

Okay. This is a [very pathetic] thing that has irked me for quite sometime. You cannot call yourself a band geek and have that be it. Especially if you have little to no musical talent. It's like me calling myself a math nerd because I'm in two classes of it (don't even ask why), yet suck majorly. You have to let yourself earn the title. So adding a Facebook bumper sticker stating "BAND GEEK AND PROUD" is bad for many reasons.

Reason One (as stated above):
You are not a band geek until you do something other than proclaim it and take your clarinet home every weekened to [not] practice.

Reason Two (as not stated above):
Calling yourself a band geek gives a negative stigma to those of us that are and don't blow about it.

Reason Three (as stated below):
Actions speak louder than words. So can it, shut off the computer/GameBoy, and learn how to play some eighth notes.