In The Wrong Place at the Wrong Time

I am utterly sickening. Sickening sickening sickening.

God, I want someone. And I don't want someone who's just there...who's adequate...who fails to make my heart skip a beat and make me wonder if I'm dreaming. I want someone on my wavelength.

I want someone who's a constant...no matter what kind of crap I've gone through, it doesn't seem near as bad when I'm with him. Someone who relies on my opinion and vice versa. Someone who can give himself to me completely, with no secrets or lies or false pretenses. Someone who'll fit together with me perfectly like a puzzle. Someone who I can be stupid with and moreover, someone who's my brand of stupid.

And I have found him. Unfortunately.....never gonna happen. Not in one million years. Unless circumstances would drastically change.