Oh, do I feel like crap. And I'm not sure if it's mental or physical (the first time I tried to type that it typoed SO badly.....I'm embarassed), but given the fact I'm hacking up a lung every seven seconds, I'm pretty sure it's both.

As a quick question, asked in second-person: Why can't you care? I mean, actually let me know you care? I'd appreciate a "Feel better" or even a "You're breathing on me, move" to a half-wave and no facial expression.

God. He really doesn't care.

No, he doesn't love you. And he only shows active care to those that he loves. You get the passive kind.

I feel.....saying "I feel alone" is gonna sound so teenage angst. But I do. I have my parents, but they don't offer what I need. That's not a knock to them, they're great. But I honestly want someone that I can be fluffy and romantic with. I want to be part of a solid couple. Where it's assumed that I'll be with someone, rather than an "Oh, you're coming too?" I am sick of asking. I just....

I just really don't feel good.